Decisions

When you look back there will be things you will regret.
You made the wrong decision.
Wrong.

You made the right decision.
Life is about decisions.

1. Am I going to have the practical car or the fast car?
2. Shall I go to college or get a job?
3. Will I have wine, beer or water?

Whatever decision you make is the only one you could make.
Otherwise you would make a different one.
Everything we do we choose.
So what is there to regret?
You are the person you chose to be.

Nada

A veces me preocupo por mi falta de emoción en la vida. Un edificio podría estar derrumbándose ante mis ojos y yo, cual estatua, lo miraría caer. No es que nada me afecte, pero tampoco me motiva lo suficiente como para demostrar algo. Y a veces siento que las cosas que me afectan no deberían hacerlo a semejante escala, ya que el sufrir por ellas me hace egocentrista.
Durante el viaje, muchas personas decían que extrañaban a sus familias, su casa, su ciudad. Yo no extrañaba nada. En cierto punto es bueno, pero me molesta que no haya nada que considere imprescindible. Será que al no satisfacerme nada, no hay objeto ni persona al que esté completamente apegada. Lo cual no quiere decir que no los quiera ni los valore, solo que si me privaran de ellos me olvidaría enseguida. De vez en cuando añoro cosas, situaciones o imágenes y pienso "qué buenos momentos". Pero a los pocos minutos, cualquier recuerdo se desvanece en mis pensamientos y otra vez me siento una mierda, por ni siquiera ser capaz de sentir algo al respecto.
Sin embargo, cuando volví a casa, comprendí por qué no la extrañaba: simplemente la paso mejor en otro lugar. Siempre hay motivo de depresión, no soporto mi monótona vida en este sitio. Tampoco es que la idea de una vida llena de cambios me suene tentadora. Para variar, nada me viene bien.

La soledad es muy hermosa... cuando se tiene alguien a quien decírselo.
-Gustavo Adolfo Bécquer

Estupendo

Me recontra cago en mi puta depresión.

Estupendo, estupendo. Lo hiciste, conseguiste el queso.

Cut

I'm not a stranger
No, I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

A fragile frame aged
With misery
And when our eyes meet
I know you see

But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I am cut

I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that
makes me feel anything kills inside

But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I am cut

Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone

I'm not a stranger
No, I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I was cut

Insanity / The dance of life

Un día en el college St. Giles hablamos acerca de mini-sagas (historias de exactamente cincuenta palabras). Leave-taking fue la primera que leímos a modo de ejemplo. También nos dieron una que expongo a continuación, llamada Insanity.

There was no letter that day. Joe felt all-alone. For the last six months, Joe had received a letter everyday. Today, there was no letter. Joe felt miserable throughout the day. Just before dinner, the mystery was solved – he remembered that he had forgotten to mail the letter last week.

Y por último, la que yo misma escribí en clase y titulé The dance of life. Lamento que tenga cincuenta y un palabras, pero la palabra que está de más es completamente esencial en la historia.

She went to a ball, she was asked to dance. He seemed to be the perfect man, he had chosen her as one of hundreds. They were dancing, she closed her eyes. The song came to an end and she opened her eyes to see the love of her life leaving.

Leave-taking

He took her hand. She took his money.
He took a lover. She took exception.
He took leave of his senses. She took advice.
He took fright. She took him to the cleaner's.
He took to drink. She took a holiday.
He took his life. She took up ballroom dancing.